Monday, October 24, 2011

Euro trip then back home

Again its been a ridiculously long time since i've updated my blog and I apologize to anyone reading regularly.  Life has been hectic since black friday and things are finally starting to get back on track.  After the wsop I moved up to montreal and started to play some husngs on stars.  The month I was up there i lived with primordialaa, nemoindenial and adolpho.  It was a fun time in a new and exciting city, but i missed the u.s type lifestyle and decided to move to Toronto after the lease ended.  

In between I went to Ept Barcelona but didn't have any success there.  I came back to Toronto  and started to play a lot more in order to get SNE.  I had awesome roomates, Thedutch4141 and his gf the Dutchess and grinded a ton.  I played some wcoops and ended up winning the 10k HU for about 120k.  I sold a good % of action since it was such a big buy in but it was still a nice score.  I had a really volatile month (and career) and had huge swings both ways. 

 I decided to fly to Italy for EPT san remo where I am now.  Primo and I are playing the hu tomorrow (in like 7 hours i cant sleep) and then he is going to Vienna for Junglemans bootcamp and I'm going to prague to meet skai and jonas (who attended my boot camp) just to hang out there and check out the city.  Things have been pretty exciting for me outside of poker recently.  I have started working with a fantasy football website called buzzdraft which will be launching in a few weeks, as well as working on an affiliate and making plans to start a few businesses in Austin with primordial.  

I am slowly getting out of poker and into a career which i think will be more structured and the potential for more money.  There are very very few people in poker who are considered rich relative what most consider rich in everyday life.  Sure having a few hundred k saved up in the bank might be a lot relative to other 24 year old kids, but its certainly not enough to be set for life.  Most poker players don't even have close to that much money.  

People outside looking in see my life as glamorous and sort of rock-star like, but they don't really understand the dynamics of the day to day operations.  Yes flying to Italy last minute to play an international tournament where you win a million for first might sound amazing, but doing it over and over and being disappointed when you leave really takes a toll psychologically.  It's really no way to live.  As a job poker is unbelievably stressful.  You can go to work and lose money, a lot of it, and its not pleasant.  The highs of winning do not compare to the lows of losing.  Poker has treated me so well over the past year and a half as a pro monetarily, but for some reason it always feels unfair and I cant really put it into words.  I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to travel the world and make money, but I think its time to shift my focus.  I don't really think I'm the type of person cut out for poker long term and I'm kind of glad its like that.  I am emotionally attached to winning or losing and take it personal when things don't go my way.  I always looked at poker as a stepping stone to get to where I want to be, and although I might have been consumed with it for a while, It has served an integral purpose in my career goals.  I don't see myself ever quitting poker completely, but my goal is to make it my hobby and not my job.

I will try to update this more

GL

Ankush